Covid-19 has changed life dramatically for everyone. I have had quite a few conflicting feelings over the past week. Vacillating between over-reacting and under-reacting, panic and dismissal, fear and hope I sit in my house. I want to do my part. During this time I have learned as much as I can about covid-19. I have watched too much news and too many YouTube videos on viruses, epidemiology and what to do to slow the transmission of this disease. The basics as I see them are:

It seems like this should go without saying but we are a stubborn bunch, us alcoholics. It wasn't that I thought I knew it all but rather I didn't care that I didn't. I knew just enough to get what I wanted which was drunk. In active alcoholism the only time I really listened to anyone was when they had a faster or more efficient way to get drunk or if there was some hangover remedy that would keep me from all the headaches, puking and other unpleasantries that comes with i

It seems to take on a bit different meaning in the time of the coronavirus. As I write this there has been a 'shelter in place' mandate in my county. Basically a semi-voluntary quarantine so as to lessen the spread of the virus. I have plenty of food and a whole array of distractions at my fingertips. I am stocked up to sit around for a few weeks as the virus blows through town and i do my best to avoid it. I have no work to go to as both restaurants I work at have been

Jerry reminded on a recent episode that we used to drunkenly Skype some seven or eight years ago. Bored and lonely we would smoke cigarettes, crack jokes and just shoot the shit. It was just like old times minus the miles and computer screens between us. There has always been a deep and genuine friendship between despite the alcohol and the mean-spirited ribbing we were prone to give each other back in the day. Getting together always involved drinking even living 900 mil

I just turned forty-three. It is not how I expected at all. It is so much better. In all my years of drinking I always saw pain and destruction as my future. I simply assumed that things were shitty and would probably just get worse so why not just have another drink. Life sucks anyway I might as well enjoy it. That was my attitude for pretty much my entire life. Even in the early days of sobriety that kind of thinking was still there. If I have to think back to when i